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January 23, 2011

Week Three: Discipline

This week’s focus is discipline, specifically self-discipline.  I happened to be in Cancun on vacation this week, so I am responding to this prompt from that perspective.  While I am still figuring out exactly what my specific goals are for the year (starting a yoga practice, etc) I am very pleased with how disciplined I was at staying mindful during my vacation.  I tried especially hard to stay in the moment and found that I’ve never enjoyed a vacation more.  Mindfully enjoying a vacation was so much more joyous an experience than simply letting the days flow by.

January 11, 2011

Week Two: Simplify

How can you simplify your life? How do you make it more difficult than it needs to be? How are you wasting time? What are you holding onto that is not serving you?

I spend a huge part of my life inside my own home.  I work from home and as of last week finally became an official telecommuter.  When I’m not working I prefer to be at home with Matthew, building legos, snuggling, or just being together.  The first week in January I took down the Christmas tree and decorations and also needed to clear space in my home office to bring home files since I gave up my office downtown.  This has sparked a general desire to purge *stuff* and simplify my home. 

I’ve always been a clean-througher, donater, get-rid-of-er.  When my house is immaculately, spotlessly clean – Type A, freakishly organized,  nothing out of place clean – I walk around in a state of bliss.  I LOVE it.  I don’t usually expend the effort to get to that point (last time was Thanksgiving right before family arrived and it was a week’s solid effort to get it that way) but oh did I love it before chaos descended. 

I will continue to purge, donate, and declutter.  One I need to work on is to stop acquiring.  That one’s harder for me.  But I’ve gotten much better at not buying something unless I really love it, and it’s really exactly what I want.  Mostly otherwise I try to pass.  This may be a “superficial” interpretation of simplify, but for me being inside my home when it is beautiful and CLEAR is restful and peaceful.  For me, it works.

January 9, 2011

Week One: Beginnings

As we embark on this year of mindfulness, what promise does the new year hold for you? What hopes do you have? What goals do you aspire to?

I hope to find myself and my place in the world.  Since my divorce I’ve spent the last few years in a self-imposed cocoon and I’m ready to emerge.  I’ve let friendships languish, and despite being told repeatedly that I need to “get back out there” I’ve not had any inclination to date.  I’m ready to at least consider that in my life again. 

When I got divorced I felt like I had to figure out who I was again. I’d let myself get lost in my marriage, compromised too much of myself trying to make it work.  In the last few years I’ve healed a lot, gotten strong and happy again, but I”m not sure I really know myself the way I’d like.  I find myself strangely reluctant to share myself – my likes and dislikes, thoughts and feelings – I’m talking about the silly personal stuff (favorite restaurant, what I like to do for fun).  Am I afraid of being judged?  My hope for the year is to work on owning all of me again.  (I have to mention that those who know me would probably be surprised by this.  I’m know as strong and opinionated.)

So in the spirit of new beginnings here’s a little bit about me:

  • I hate reality TV.  If there’s an awkward moment on TV I can’t watch.  I have to walk away or turn the channel.  Watching someone’s embarrassment is almost physically painful for me.
  • I love romance novels.  Addicted to them.  And the smuttier the better.  I’ve had to ban myself from reading them except when on vacation b/c once I pick one up I won’t put it down until I’ve read the whole thing.
  • I wish I were the kind of person who was athletic and worked out all the time, but I’m actually lazy and never do. However I’m intrigued by yoga because I love stretching and meditation (I’ve probably just insulted people who actually know about yoga).
  • If I was told I could only drink one beverage for the rest of my life (excepting water) I would choose milk.
January 9, 2011

Year of Mindfulness

As I start this new blogging journey for 2011 I have struggled with how to put my thoughts into any coherent form suitable for blog posts.  I’m not comfortable with my writing skills, especially when it comes to putting my thoughts “out there”.  I envisioned this blog being a place to help me focus my thoughts on becoming more mindful, defining my priorities, and doing a bit of a life “course correction.”  Problem is I’m not really clear on how to do that.

Today I came across the Year of Mindfulness * 52 Weeks of FOCUS project and think it may be a good starting point.  Hopefully I can use the weekly prompts as a starting point for self-examination.